​Every year at this time, I think about where I am versus where I want to be and I become depressed. I am never where I want to be, and as the years drag on, the further I feel I am drifting from my goals.

 This may very well be what I call the "science of aging." In the book, 'The Science of Why,' Daily Planet host, Jay Ingram discusses the belief humans have that "time flies " as you age. The feeling that, getting older, the years blend together. Our memory of time becomes faulty, which is described as a "forward telescoping." An episode we pegged to have happened a year or two ago actually happened six years ago, and so on. Ingram suggests the "time flies" phenonomenon is chalked up to us  having experienced most of our "novelty" life experiences early in our life--most of us reached milestones by the time we're 25,  and so there are fewer "eventful" experiences we have as we age, so years blend together, perhaps out of mundanity.

Of course, depending on who you are and the life you've lived, you may feel more depressed about the passage of time. After all, if you had an active and enviable social life, you may miss your youth more than if you never had much of a social life, anyway. You may feel time more and feel the change of its weight more than someone who hadn't the numeber of "eventful" experiences you've had.

 My father used to describe me at 'old before Iam young," but the truth is, I was never young. I'm not even much of a late bloomer. I never had much of a social life; yet, this doesn't mean I don't feel the weight of time--the sluggish pull of middle age that is creeping up on me. It never was lost on me that by the time my parents were my age, they had two children.

At this age--early 30s, I am childless, and fine with it. It was never my goal to be married with children, yet there's a certain pressure women of a certain age feel to procreate. Maybe the Germans have a word for it, I don't know. It's the feeling of exclusion--that there's something everyone's doing that you're not, or that you can't do something others can do. A limitation. A loss of options--choice.
 
 I always say, you're not old until you're off the calendar. The calendar has 31 days, and this year I passed that. There's also a "what now?" question that repeats itself in my head--a kind of desperate rush to do things, so I can get it over with. This year I had more things going on in my life than previous years. I made the effort to meet new people and find more like-minded companions, and it was worth it.
 
 Yet, end of year is another reminder of unstoppable time. I guess I'm saying: live life to the fullest, and have a Happy New Year!

​Though he doesn't say it explicitly, author Ted Chiang's acclaimed short story collection, The Story of Your Life has a singular theme---communication (and all its sub-mutations, language, understanding and meaning).

In the opening story, The Tower of Babel, builders climb the famed Biblical monument. In Hell is the Absence of God, a man struggles to interpret God's message; in Division Zero, a woman goes mental  trying to figure out  a mathematical riddle.

But this post is about the title story, The Story of Your Life (Arrival, 2016) in which a linquist must decipher an alien language to prevent potential conflict.

 

• I have  B.A. in Professional Writing. Once, I considered becoming an editor. I am a web addict--Twitter mainly. ​

 

• Speculative Fiction Books I am obsessed with include: Anne Bishop's The Black Jewels Series; Ted Chiang's Story of  Your Life (Arrival).

 

• Natural talents I lust for include singing, dancing and drawing. Despite taking guitar and swimming lessons, I can barely manage either task.


• Natural talents I lust for include singing, dancing and drawing. Despite taking guitar and swimming lessons, I can barely manage either task.

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•  I wax affectionately for William Shakespeare and know a few of his sonnets/soliloquies by heart. Also, I swoon for Bob Dylan. Truth is, I am obsessed with words--Logolatry.  Anyone who masters language will always have my heart.

 

• I am locked in to Disney and Marvel's productions, and Game of Thrones. I even fear dying and not getting to see the end of a  Song of Ice and Fire (Game of Thrones) and Marvel's Infinity Wars.

 

•  The superpower I would most want is Persuasion (like Killgrave in Marvel's Jessica Jones). The ability to talk your way through life  (for me it comes back to the power of words or powerful words--logos, or logopathy (passionate word)--yeah, I made the last word up-- I fancy myself an amateur etymologist).

 

• I am getting into processing and developing--computers. I can build a website and "simple" games for smart phones.

 

•  I am a lucid dreamer--I absorb external stimuli (sounds) into my dreams. I am aware I am dreaming while I am dreaming (did you get that?)

 

•  In another life, I'd be a  astrophysicist or archeologist. I love the stars/the concept of space-time and I love ancient civilizations and cultures--not that I am intrigued by Ancient Aliens or anything. 

 

• Personality Tests usually conclude that I am an intuitive thinker and introverted. It goes well with my Hogwarts sorting House--Ravenclaw.

 Sample of Intuitive Thinking: Intuitive Thinkers prefer to be challenged intellectually and to think things through for themselves. They are curious about ideas, have a tolerance for theory, a taste for complex problems, and a concern for long-range consequences.
 
Ravenclaw:Ravenclaw House prizes learning, wisdom, wit, and intellect in its members.[3] Thus, many Ravenclaws tend to be academically motivated and talented students. Ravenclaws also pride themselves in being original in their ideas, and methods. It's not unusual to find Ravenclaw students practicing especially different types of magic that other houses might shun