Dead on Concept

​What's worse than writer's block? 

To quote Bob Dylan--"I have a head full of ideas that are driving me insane." 

I know that saying --"if there's a story you want told, then write it," and I have been trying to live by this rule. I like to think of concepts/ideas for stories before I attempt to write them. What's been driving me mad is that I can generate so many "fascinating" storytelling ideas and then draw blank when I sit down to write them.

What's wrong with me and how to fix it?

​I have expressed on this blog before that I have little confidence in my execution of ideas (storytelling). I recently tweeted that storytelling is more important than writing; in actuality, an author should aim for both--the best writers know how to do both. Storytelling is more about big ideas-- mindbogglingly reveals, twists, and truths that leave the reader in awe, thinking about the story long after they've finished the book. Writing/being a writer is about structuring and presenting those intricacies of storytelling.

I am a "big ideas" writer, but I drive myself mad trying to figure out how to present those ideas in a logical, compelling and utter engrossing way. Plotting is hard. Timing is hard. Lately, I have been drawn to the free indirect discourse style--the literary narrative.  I think of this style as a ramble inside a person's head.

Perhaps my attachment to this style is that it feels authentic--my head is a messy place of ideas and rambles.
But, here comes all the doubts of whether I can do this properly for my next manuscript, which I shall hereby dub, Anac.

Cheers to the new year 2020,
and something me and my mommy can be proud of.